Effects of Caffeine: an NPR article

NPR article on Caffeine

So it seems that caffeine can do harm after all…  oooh, a surprise! 

I got it down to a cup of coffee a day and maybe a can of Coke.  But I know plenty of people (*cough*Pastor Shawn*cough*) who constantly drink caffeine drinks.  Let’s all try to stay healthy and learn to control our ignored drug addiction! 

Kids and Discipline

There’s one thing I can’t stand… kids who are spoiled.  Oh, don’t  misunderstand me.  I spoil my kids with love as much as possible but there’s also a wrong and bad kind of spoiling, the kind that makes the kids behave badly.  So it’s my life’s goal to make sure my kids aren’t that way.  I want them to grow up to respect others and their property the way they’d want to be treated.

Well, boys sure are difficult.  JJ is proving to be quite a handful.  While Anna loves to help out and obey us fairly well, JJ on the other hand, doesn’t.  He’s quite defiant actually.  We’ve told him over and over.  On top of that, he knows that he’s loved so it aids in his being defiant.  Soojin is not helping in that department (but he’s so cute)!

But in the event of disobedience, we have to be firm.  That happened… again… tonight.  After bathing them, I let them play a bit.  Well, to my not-so-surprise, I find out that JJ drew on the wall with a green crayon!    Oh he knows better.  He probably figured I’d just slap his buttocks a bit and move on… well, this wasn’t his day.  I took him aside and talked to him about what he did wrong, what we had told him not to do (which is not to draw on walls and that’s what papers are for).  I took the official punishment stick (aka. wooden rice scooper ??).  I gave him good slap on his hands.  And thighs.

I hate these displinary moments… but I refuse to let my kids grow up improperly.  I understand more and more what my parents had to go through… inside.  This hurts.  Whoever said that love hurts, knows a lot about life.  This time, very literally.  I told him as before, that whenever he got punished, I’d be as well, to share in his pains, and as an act of my taking responsibility in my shortcomings as a parent.  My thigh and hands hurt.

Whoever tells me that spanking and disciplining is easy don’t love their children.  But I didn’t want to cry in front of my son.  Not yet anyway… perhaps on the rainy days of his teenage hood.  The innerds of my heart hurts whenever I discipline them.  I don’t know why but this time was more difficult… perhaps it’s because I know that I will have to repeat this more with my son in the future.  In the mean time, after the explanation (aka. the lecture), I hugged him.  And massaged his wounds.  This must be what God’s grace and mercy must be like.  And this must be like how God feels after spanking us for our disobedience.  I held him for good five minutes until his tears somewhat stopped.  Then he ran to his mom.    I do hope he grows up to understand… but he won’t truly… until he becomes a dad himself.

Here’s to all the dads that had to discipline their kids but loves them to the end…

Boycotting Chavez and Citgo

This “leader” of Venezuela aka. Chavez is truly something. Something that of an idiot.
He has no idea of as a leader. He ticks me off. Not because he insulted President Bush. To me, whatever comes out of his mouth isn’t worth the attention anyway.

The reason I plan to boytcott Citgo, the subsidiary of Venezuelan oil company is because I want Chavez to know that he’s an idiotic ruler. No grace or wisdom whatsoever, shooting off his mouth like that. Someone that ignorant doesn’t deserve to be a ruler in my book. So I plan on hitting him where it hurts: his money pocket. The fact that he thinks he’s some kind of God messenger in comdemning Bush is a true example of hypocrisy at its best. His leadership is a “creative dictatorship” at its best. Give me a break…

Read this article from Washington Post about him…

Looking again at what a marriage is…

Lately, a couple (not yet married) that we know of are going through that “final stage difficulties” prior to marriage. Shorty put, things are rocky. It made me realize yet again that relationships are where God is needed the most. Otherwise, we wouldn’t last.Soojin and I are not perfect, to say the least. We fight still. And we used to fight even more back in our first two years or so of our marriage. When we got married, I told myself that neither of us are near even perfect, and with the uncertainty of life ahead of us, the only thing we could be certain of was our promise: our promise to each other to put each other first, and to continue to forgive each other, and through Christ, bring ourselves together and become more like Christ.

Over the years, I’ve had my shares of anger and resentment and loads other things. I’ve head-butted the wall and punched it several times due to anger as we fought. But I’ve never hit Soojin. And I’ve always mended the differences between us over and over again. Even if it was to agree to disagree. We still don’t see everything eye to eye. But if Christ forgave us for all of our past, present, and future shortcomings and sins, both of us know that we don’t have the right to hold it out against the other. Again, it’s the parable of the servant that was forgiven a year’s wage who couldn’t forgive a fellow servant for mere change.

When you enter into sacred holy matrimony (don’t joke about that), you don’t say those vows of “for better or for worse” for nothing. God never promised us certainty about our future. Only that He would be with us through our uncertainties. If one waits till your would-be-spouse is ready or situations were “perfect”, you will be waiting forever. I guarantee it. When you decide to marry someone, you are making the promise to both of yourselves that you decide to accept the other person as they are (as God created).

I feel that lately, with our generation and younger, we give up too easily on things. Especially on relationships. I pray that this will change. After all, would you want God to change His mind about you?

“Every New Day” – Theme Song of My Life

“Every New Day” by Five Iron Frenzy (bold face and italics added by me)

When I was young, the smallest trick of light,
Could catch my eye,
Then life was new and every new day,
I thought that I could fly.
I believed in what I hoped for,
And I hoped for things unseen,
I had wings and dreams could soar,
I just don’t feel like flying anymore.
When the stars threw down their spears,
Watered Heaven with their tears,
Before words were spoken,
Before eternity.

Dear Father, I need you,
Your strength my heart to mend.
I want to fly higher,
Every new day again.

When I was small, the furthest I could reach,
Was not so high,
Then I thought the world was so much smaller,
Feeling that I could fly.
Through distant deeps and skies,
Behind infinity,
Below the face of Heaven,
He stoops to create me.

Dear Father, I need you,
Your strength my heart to mend.
I want to fly higher,
Every new day again.

Man versus himself.
Man versus machine.
Man versus the world.
Mankind versus me.
The struggles go on,
The wisdom I lack,
The burdens keep pilling
Up on my back.
So hard to breathe,
To take the next step.
The mountain is high,
I wait in the depths.
Yearning for grace,
And hoping for peace.
Dear God…
Healing hands of God have mercy on our unclean souls once again.
Jesus Christ, light of the world burning bright within our hearts forever.
Freedom means love without condition,
without a beginning or an end.
Here’s my heart, let it be forever Yours,
Only You can make every new day seem so new.

Touches of raising children

Well, there are strange things you experience when you raise kids…

1) JJ’s poop has been getting bigger and thicker… and smellier!
2) JJ and Anna like to ask me to read to them before they lie to sleep.
3) JJ has especially been increasing his food intake!
4) JJ definitely has the face of a clown! And acts like it too… I’m gonna miss it when he grows up.
5) Anna likes to write out the letters (be it Korean or English) on whatever surface she finds. I find that very cute…
6) Today, Anna had that look… how pretty she is… she’s gonna break some hearts when she grows up!
7) Soojin likes to get JJ to say “I love you” while he’s sleeping…

Sheer gold.

Fold for a cure please!!

As some of you know, I’ve lost a lot of relatives and friend to cancer… my grandfather to lung cancer, my uncle to liver & lung cancer, my cousin to leukemia, my grandma to another cancer, my aunt to another cancer…  Our beloved friend was lost to stomach cancer and over the weekend, I learned of more tragedies…

Soojin had already lost two uncles (on her mom’s side) to liver cancer and now the only remaining uncle just discovered he has liver cancer as well!    Soojin’s worried that her mom will eventually also get it.  So Soojin’s oldest aunt had died less than a year ago…

The list just goes on… I felt so helpless… ’cause I wanted to help in whatever I could… turns out I wasn’t too far… I discovered Folding @ Home, a distributed computing developed by Stanford professor.  You basically allow Stanford to run protein folding simulations on your computer and pass on the info.  If you own a computer, you can help in fighting the cancer!  I leave both of my computers on 24/7!  Even with increased fuel costs, it doesn’t cost that much to run them 24/7.  If a PC uses 500 W, even in a day, that’s 12 kW-hr.  At rates like even conservative 20 cents/kW-hr, that is only $2.40 a day, but likely about $1.80 a day (since current rate is about 15 cents/kW-hr and normal PC uses 300W or so).

I fold so that I don’t have to lose people.  Do you?  Please consider it!!  I will even give out free tech support for it!!