What’s reminiscence without complementary grandpa?
My paternal grandfather was a man of education. He spent the entire life on education. He was a principal to an elementary school in Namwon. Most of the people that are in and around the area grew up having him as the principal. I recall so many people coming over to pay their respects during his funeral.
It was a very emotional one for me. He had just one wish and that was to hold a great grandson. Trust me, if I could turn back time, I wish I could grant him that one last wish. But alas, he died without having held JJ. I used to think badly of that. You see, Anna is my older child but having grown up in Confucius teachings and the older culture, he practically ignored my daughter when we had visited him several years ago.
I used to hold that against him… but now, I just … let it go. He has known that culture for all his life and have realized that expecting him to love my daughter just as much as he would my son was more than he could. Perhaps, it was being a principal but I remember him being very strict and … not very fun to be around. My (paternal) grandmother was so much kinder, though I barely remember her now… She passed away when I was only about 20. Having bored 10 children was more than she could handle. The biggest thing I remember was that she would let me go out to play when grandpa told us not to go outside.
Namwon was a countryside back then… no covered roads to home… just dirt. So the beginning decades for me weren’t very fond memories of him. But as conversations come back again and again to it, jung (정, the essence of emotional bonds between people that is formed over time and/or circumstances) is a very strong and scary stuff.
Since adulthood, I have had the opportunity to visit him again and again. Once he came to visit us in the States. We drove him around even to Canada to sightsee. Over the years, I noticed him getting… softer. It was rather subtle but it was there. He was less strict and laughed more (at least to what I remember).
I’d like to believe that he died peacefully having made peace with what he could and the people that he could. Seeing all those people coming to pay respects reminded me that he did something right. But it was definitely a gentler and softer grandfather that I remember now… I am so glad that is how I remember him. See you soon grandpa… Hope you can see JJ from up there…
For almost 4 years my family lived in Seoul in Sung-book Gu (성북구) during my elementary school years. My (mathernal) grandparents lived not too far from us. I think it was about 20 minutes by walking distance.
Few things I recall about my grandparents, I wanted to write them here more for my own sake than others so I can remember about them. My grandfather was a busy man so I don’t remember much about him at all other than he was a collector of all sorts, including Korean art. I think I have some of that gene as I love collecting things.
Unfortunately, things about my grandfather ends there. It’s my grandmother (외할머니) that I remember more of. She had a … vibrant spirit about her. She was always very straightforward and told things as she saw them.
One, she loved wrestling. In my youth days, there was one Korean short wrestler by the name of Kim Il (김 일) who was infamous for head butting his opponents. She would always watch him play and would love seeing his head butting. I obviously didn’t think much of it at the time, being about 10 years old at that time but it has strangely become a fond memory of her. Weird? I think once time goes by, any memories one retains of the person stays.
Another thing I recall is how she loved to cook. 쑥 (ssook) is a rather common plant as the picture above shows and is known as Asteraceae. This was a very common plant that was everywhere, at least while I was a kid, in Korea. I remember grandma would ask us to go out with her and pick these by the bag-fulls! What did she do with them? Why, make rice cakes (떡) of course! 쑥떡 (pronounced ssook-dduk) would come out rather dark green in color and didn’t taste very good. Well, to be honest, it tasted terrible!
However, I’d pay million bucks to go back in time to about picking 쑥 with her and I’d gladly eat all the 쑥떡 that she would give if I could… I guess I feel nostalgic and miss her. I sure hope she’s making me plenty of 쑥떡 up in heaven… I bet she’s picking them up in heaven right about now… See you soon grandma.
“We are born broken. We live by mending. The grace of God is the glue.” ~ Eugene O’Neill
I saw this on Twitter posted by Pastor Eugene Cho. Normally, I would’ve just passed it by. However, this quote spoke volume to me.
You see, I believe we all have baggage. All the little and big things from our past be it mistakes, people, or secrets, we all carry that into the present and future. No matter who you are, and whether you are a Christian or not, we all carry that.
We as Christians don’t feel like going to church or work with others. I still remember from my mission trip to Thailand in ‘93, that the number 1 reason that the missionaries leave their posts and return home is none other than other missionaries. I was only 20 at the time so I did not know what that really meant. Over the years though, I have felt that and lived that. It’s so true that it’s hard to live with other people around us. So to work with others would be even more difficult.
Younger people don’t want to go to church but just stay at home and use TV and the Internet to receive the message these days. While that may seem efficient on the surface, inside, it reveals something darker.
If you recall the Parable of the Unmerciful Servant (Matthew 18:21-35), this servant that was forgiven a million dollars could not forgive the debt of a friend who owed him $1000. The master who had originally forgiven him of that million dollars found out and put him in jail for being ungrateful and unmerciful. We all are that unmerciful servant in that we were all forgiven million dollars. What others have done to us and do to us are small compared to what God has forgiven.
As the playwright Eugene O’Neill stated, “we are born broken”. We are born messed up and none of us are in “good condition” to begin with. This is why when we try to work with others or live together in harmony, it is so freaking hard. I have holes in my heart. So do you. And all those around us. Our own imperfections can’t deal with each others’ on top of our own. None of us should be surprised to learn that.
We try to be islands and become ascetic. For anyone else, that may be fine. But I believe God has put us to live with each other for a reason. If we truly understand the Parable of the Unmerciful Servant and realize just how much we have been forgiven, we can forgive others. And second sentence of Eugene O’Neill’s quote becomes possible. ”We live by mending”. Why? Because “the grace of God is the glue.”
As the life unfolds before me and life goes on, I am reminded of the million dollar debt I am cleared of and that God asks me to love others just as He has loved me and accept others with their imperfections just as they are as we all struggle to mend ourselves. We shall truly fail if we use our own strength. We will only succeed if we use the grace of God as glue.
My old HTC Touch (in Verizon, it’s called XV6900) has been acting up and battery doesn’t hold charge anymore and the Internet is intermittent at best. So when I heard that the new Motorola Droid X was coming out on July 15th, I started to wait. My 2-year contract ended back in June so at midnight of the 15th, I pulled the trigger and got i on Friday!
Others seem to be not as lucky as now, it won’t ship till the 25th.
Here are the box shots and Droid X shots… The camera is an old Sony that doesn’t seem to take good shots so please do excuse me.
Now the shot out of the box…
The battery came fully charged! And since I output all my contacts into CSV file and then imported it into Gmail account, syncing and updating my contacts was a breeze! Not to mention that once you set up all your social networking accounts, Android 2.1 updates all the Facebook friends as well! It was even sweeter once I learned that from the contacts list, you can see all the social networking friends’ updates!
Here are some of the generic shots…
There are 7 windows where you can swipe through for different types of “setups”. One for weather, one for social networking widgets, one for media etc. I like that. I also enjoyed the screen. 4.3″ screen is quite an ample size. And yes, it has 512 MB of ROM memory, 8 GB internal & 16 GB SD card storage, along with 1 GHz processor! On top of that, Verizon’s 3G network was a champ! Android Marketplace worked just fine and all the apps installed quickly and w/o any hassle.
Default browser wasn’t very attractive. So I installed Opera Mini from the Market and I was happier then! Also it did play DivX file just fine but I wanted better support so I searched for MKV in the Market and found a player called Rock Player. Almost no hiccups at all, even in playing large MKV 720p files. I am loving this!
The screen is beautiful. Pictures don’t do justice. aGPS works well and with Google Maps, it went well! MP3 works well. And since I have unlimited 3G, I gave Slackware a try. Just search for it on Android Market! The music will download and play seamlessly. The overall experience was great. However, there are two things that I didn’t like…
First is the heat. When in use, it gets hot! Especially where you are holding it. Dang it. Second is the battery. It doesn’t last very long. Yeah, they say you can talk for very long and such… but I gave it a moderately heavy usage and after 7 hours, battery color changed from healthy green to uh-oh orange and then to flashing green top bar and it was unresponsive from there. I will probably carry the USB cable with car adapter and charge it in the car and at work. So I suppose it won’t be terribly bad but still…
So my final score? 8.5 / 10
This thing delivers! Here is the summary…
The Good: Everthing. 3G, widgets and apps, Android Market, seamless integration, smooth multimedia playback.
The Bad: It gets hot! And battery drains fairly fast.
The following video is NOT for the faint of heart! Some are created and some footages are REAL! DO NOT let kids watch this and if you have kids, you may NOT wish to see this! If you don’t drive safely, or pay attention while driving ’cause you are texting or whatever, consider this your last and big warning…
I myself am going to slow down and pay attention more from now on… This video can be very traumatic! So you’ve been warned!
Also it did play DivX file just fine but I wanted better support so I searched for MKV in the Market and found a player called 
The music will download and play seamlessly. The overall experience was great. However, there are two things that I didn’t like…