The Cost of Inconvenience

Well, my mother-in-law is leaving to go back to Korea tomorrow.  It’s a mixed feeling really personally.  As some (mostly guys ) suggested, it has been a bit … inconvenient past near 3 months.  Having to keep an eye out to make sure I don’t do stupid things or say stupid things to her most of the time…

We’ve had “mild” clashes having different minds and all… but overall, it’s been anything but bad.  Awesome food.  Kids love her to death.  Soojin’s happy (most of the time).  So what if it’s slightly inconvenient?!  I almost thought that if she didn’t mind this place, I would ask her to just *GASP* live with us! 

But alas, she hates it here, not the kids or us, just being so… displaced.  She misses seeing people on the street and not being able to go around as she pleases.  Oh well… The tough part is in the (coming) separation.

Just last night as she tried to explain to my daughter how she will be returning to Korea, Anna told her to “just go and sleep for a day and come back with lots of presents.”    When she figures out that she won’t return for at least a year (if not more), she’s gonna be devastated.  Not to mention even JJ will miss her… 

And don’t even get me started on Soojin!  She already started crying…   Sheesh… crying is my sheer weakness.  Sad faces and tears just make me weak…  I guess it’s my version of kryptonite.  Please pray for Soojin to be strong, to keep God in her focus.  But what will make it even tougher is that I will be gone too from Wednesday thru Friday night.  I will be joining our church’s (Pathways Church) mission team to go to near New Orleans to help rebuild and clean up the neighbors near us.    So she will be by herself trying to play with kids who have been spoiled (in a good sense) by their grandma.

Ah… the perils of humanity… is only to draw closer to another human.  Why?  Because the fear of attachment (and separation) is what we fear…    I will end this entry with the quote from old Monkees’ song, “Daydream Believer“. 

Cheer up, sleepy jean.
Oh, what can it mean.
To a daydream believer
And a homecoming queen.

Cheer up Soojin.